Tuesday 21 April 2015

Remorse

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I listened to the ticking of the bedside clock in the dead silence of the night, each repetitive beat filling me with fresh guilt, ache and remorse. How I wished to travel back in time to that careless moment, erase it and then change the course of events to a much happier ending. In that case it wouldn't have been an ending but a new beginning.

I  understood very well the futility of these thoughts that haunted me every night, waiting to play in my head when I was alone. They were as meaningless as the desperation of an archer to take back the arrow he had shot. Like my wish to take back the tears I had shed. The words I had spoken. Perhaps my wounds were destined to remain raw and unhealed.

Words. They are so powerful, sometimes soothing and capable of healing. At other times hurting and capable of wounding. Little had I known this when I spat out words that pierced his heart like daggers. What had started off as a small difference of opinion soon snow-balled into a major fight. He chose to be silent but I spewed venom, coercing him to join the verbal duel.

Being his wife, I knew well what would hurt him. When he could take it no more, he walked out of our home. I felt triumphant and waited for his return to celebrate my victory. Little did I realise that I had lost him forever. The clock ticked away and the world moved on but I was sucked deeper and deeper into the bottomless pit of remorse.



P.S: This is my 100th post! I'm on top of the world. Feeling proud of my 8 month old journey :) A huge thank you to each one of my readers. I hope you continue the support and that I can keep up to your expectations!



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9 comments:

  1. Another beaitiful and powerful story!! Congratulations on ur 100th post!! Loved reading each one of them and can't wait to read more such beautiful posts! Words can be dangerous when spoken without thinking. Will always try and remeber it!

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  2. Visiting from A to Z challenge. Love this little piece of writing, very emotive. And big congrats on reaching post 100!

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  3. Congratulations on your 100th post and may they keep coming. Salute!

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  4. A sensitive and beautifully woven post. Congrats on the 100 tons:)

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  5. Oh yes! Words are very powerful and they can hurt a lot! That is why hey say, be sure to taste your words before you spit them out!! A fab story, Vidya and congratulations on your first century! Here's to many many more! Cheers :)

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  6. Congrats on your 100th post. Well woven Vidya :)

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  7. Sad to say, I've been there. That's what I love about your stories...they are so relatable. I've learned to hold my tongue much better these days, for which everyone around me is grateful. :)

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  8. Great story about remorse. I love the way you narrate, Vidya. Congratulations on 100 posts. Here's to many more!! :)

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  9. Congrats Vidya! 100 posts in such a short time :) Wishing you a million more posts here!

    The story was so poignant. This post definitely shows how far you have come as a writer. I could see everything that you have written.

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